Confession time

   Monday go away!!  Wasn't ready for you!  Well here you are, and I'm dealing.  Yesterday marked the end of round two of 21 DF.  It ended on a bittersweet note.  Yes...it is confession time.  Father bless me for I have sinned....
   So I struggle with binge eating.  Always at night.  I'm always so good throughout the day.  But at night my demons come out, and they're really hungry!!  Last night right before bed, I had a whole can of Chef Boyardee (gross) AND a bowl of cocoa puffs....madness!! Larry caught me too midfork into the Boyardee.  All I have to say for myself is, I got up this morning and did Full Body Cardio Blast....sick stomach and all.  Paybacks can be....difficult.
   Yes I have setbacks, and I think it's important to talk about them, so it's not in secret.  I am human, and food is a major weakness of mine.  If eating were a sport I'd have a gold medal.  I'm that good at it.  But I refuse to quit everything I've been working towards because of my bad choices on one occasion.  Okay so there have been more than one occasions.  But that's not the point.  Progress, not perfection.  I'm still getting into the best shape of my life.  And it all starts in my mind.  This program amazes me.

Back in the grind

   Exhausted...getting used to getting up at six oclock, and so far my body is rejecting the whole notion.  Got through Upper Body Fix after I got Dia and Caroline on the bus.  Then made my shake, took Larry to work (we have one working car right now), and went and had a visit with my mom.  Finally just had my shower, and giving myself permission to relax.  I like blogging because it helps me make sense of my life.  So thank you for reading, because that is my motivation.
   Last week Eddie missed a whole week of football because of a middle ear infection.  Now he is back...last night was their first night with full pads...he worked his ass off, and it was hot.  But he still had fun.  I pretty  much hang out under a shady tree on my blanket the whole time, reading.  Dia has many friends there at the park that she hangs out with.  It's a beautiful thing because we all benefit.
   Still pretty much on track on my eating plan.  And I have cut down on wine significantly.  Just taking it one day at a time.  I know I.m making progress, and that feels empowering.  I'm no longer eating mindlessly.  Part of that is because the shakes I'm drinking are taking away the cravings.  If you are interested in Shakeology, message me at 88trish@live.com and I can help you out.  You won't regret it!

A better day

   Well today is the day I take measurements for 21 day fix I completed on Sunday.....I know, i'm a little late.  Sometimes life happens.  I'm also supposed to be taking my 'after" pictures....oh joy.  Ha!!  Feeling a little vulnerable with all of this...also a little excited.  I have already started another round of 21 day fix, so this is only the beginning.  I'm looking to tweak my lifestyle, and I feel that is already happening.  This has been one of the most chllenging things I have ever put myself through...especially when it comes to diet.  And I have by no means been perfect.  But I have definately made progress.  The program is not a magic pill for weight loss.  You have to do the work and eat correctly.

   Monday already?!?  Drinking my Shakeo, and listening to Ray LaMontagne....peaceful...for now.  My son has an ear infection, so none of us slept well last night.  Going to the doctor this afternoon.  He's never had one before.  No football for him tonight.
   I'm feeling some kind of way these days.  I feel old.  Whatever it is, I hope it goes away soon.  I think part of it is having kids that are growing up too fast.  And they go back to school in a week.  And Fall is coming.  And then winter....and on and on.
   But you know me, I get through things because I have to.  And I know I have to stay strong for my family.  Prayers right now are appreciated.  Now time to get on with my day.

Friday Chill

   So I put a spoonful of natural peanut butter in my superfoods shake today.  A nice change--gotta mix it up!  Cardio mix is completed--you know how much I hate cardio....but I got through it.  My daughters girlfriends are here, and I'm walking around in a sports bra.  They could care less.
   I'm going to have a bit of a me day today....which for me means I'm going to set my hair in rollers.  And lounge around the house as much as possible.  Wish the kitchen would clean itself!!
   No football until Monday, I know Eddie is glad for the break after four days of conditioning.  He still hasn't come downstairs yet.

Four days and counting....

   Well I'm all the way on day 18, the time has been flying...Sunday I take measurements to see if I lost any inches.  I feel really good for the most part.  This is a lifestyle shift for me.  It gives me more of a focus and a direction into wellness.  It feels good to have a little more structure in my life.
   Using the portion containers has become second nature...I really don't even have to think about it.  And now I'm eating a healthy balance for the first time in my life.  So after these 21 days, I will continue to use portion control containers, I'll just be able to eat more as I will no longer be eating at a calorie deficit (which is what I'm doing now).  For some reason I'm so much more creative when it comes to putting meals together.

tradition....

   Wow i'm hungry... Thank God we're going to Palanza's Pizza In Sunnyland soon.  Oh my god I can'.t wait.  It's a football tradition.  It's right around the corner from where Eddie practices.  So my paln since I'm on day 17 of 21 is to order some kind os grilled chicken salad.  Of course I will be surounded by pizza and breaded wings--the best--since thats what the kids are having.  I'm getting hungrier just typing this.
   I just had a handful of blueberries ( one purple), so I'm feeling a little more stable.  Well, here's to football, tradition, and great family restaurants!!

First world problems

   Well after being so on track these past two weeks...last night was a disaster....it started after dinner when I decided to have an extra glass of wine after being so good....for some reason that led me down a dark path, laden with bbq Lays potato chips (and you know how good those are).  I was literally shoving them into my face, and couldn't make myself stop.  Thank God today was Cardio Blast Your Ass, so I feel a little redeemed.

   Well I'm always preaching "progress not perfection", and there was nothing perfect about last night.  And two weeks of clean eating and working out has got to be progress:)

A non-scale victory!!

   Mmmmmmmmm....Shakeology... I am really loving mine right now.  I'm out on my deck, and it is gorgeous.  Got my workout in--just glad it's out of the way.
   Well I'm two weeks in now, and the biggest change I can see is in the way my clothes are fitting me.  I don't look like a stuffed sausage anymore....or feel like one.  Let's see what another week can do, and then I will continue doing the plan, but not at a calorie deficit like I'm doing now.  And I might take one day off during the week with my workouts.....and possibly add a cheat meal once a week (Key's Catering style!!)
   My non scale victory was Friday when I put on a skirt I couldn't fit into two weeks ago.  It fits me easily now!!